黎离

行迈靡靡，中心如醉。
知我者谓我心忧,
不知我者,谓我何求.

中原的故事

故国残月
沉入伊河暗涌的波涛；
凭栏河畔，
谁与我共听千年的禅训。
抬头只见你，
挽起千年的风沙，
化作一抿嘴角的微笑。

深沉的黄土，
埋葬着祖先的故事；
而今天的你，
用黑眸诉说着新的传奇。
在这片炽热的田地里，
只要播撒下希望的种子，
便能孕育出耀眼的奇迹。

如果这也算创作

立春后的第一场雨，

淋湿了街边行道树鲜绿的新叶，

洗净了走廊围墙上沉积的尘土，

潮湿的空气在四际弥漫，

如同新鲜橙汁般芳香。

小心翼翼地越过水潭，

抬起头，

我看见一个佝偻的背影，

蓝色的花布衫，

不合时宜的斗笠

藏在一架沉重的板车后。

错身而过，

我看见马路对面大树

那浓的化不开的绿。

转过那熟悉不过的街角

刹那间

我看见你嫣然的笑脸

在你身边，

是为你撑伞的他。

错身而过，

我听见一颗水滴

在地上飞溅的声音。

一步步地走上山坡，

红灯前，

我看见银白色跑车里

静止的画面。

那是一个女子的侧脸，

凝固的眼，

微皱的眉。

红灯转绿，

跑车在雨中如银箭般冲出，

那身后的，

竟是一阵

轰隆嘲讽的呼啸。

08 Feb. 2010

The world has its pain

"The world has its pain." I heard it from the pastor in today's worship at KIBC. I failed to attend the worship last Sunday and I almost missed today's brilliant sunshine

if it were not for my roommate's kind remind.

This is my third week of semester 2 in year1, and I got quite busy in the past week's time.

Finished my O.B presentation with my teammates in group 1. It was my first time to cooperate with

local students on a group project. I have to admit that I did not have much confidence in their performance,

as one of them two, Anna, talked little in our discussion and didn't seem to have proficiency in English. However, I

preyed to God and make every effort I can to handle things well, wished that everything was on track with telephone calls, and continuous modification on our work. Michelle was of great help, meanwhile Sara seemed busy with other stuff at the same time. I understood that a group which works as a whole performs well only if there's some one in charge, or in other words, organize everything. I doubt if I do have potential in leadership, but I always have tendency to be the one who is to shoulder responsibility, when no other people excels me in that. Or at least, "with great power comes greater responsibility", my cooperation with my close friends last semester didn't bring me with such kind of experience, since every one was thoroughly aware of the field each of us are good since we all know each other well and trust others. However, this time I learned that within a team, you not only have to have trust in others,but efficient communication is vital, so that everyone shall be conscious of how everything is going, and there ought to be one person in charge( to make sure that everyone works on his part well), or the group work might mess up.

After all, I handed in my application form for exchange program on Friday, and high probabilities are that I will spend

my 2 semester in Year2 in Aarhus University in Denmark. Hopefully I will have some companions, if possible.:)

But to stay alone in a long journey is a perfect chance of enjoying meaningful meditation and solitude. Never have I stepped onto the European continent and I just hope that everything will be OK.

It was terrible that I seriously hurt my ankle after my muscular fitness class last Wed., and I had a horrible experience as a "handicapped person", having to walk slowing relying merely on my left leg between the old and new campuses. However, it's interesting to see the college, my life in a slower pace, and to rethink of the value of health and happiness which are priceless but often ignored by us. I was thinking of my plan of exchange to the other side of the world, when I fell over the step under my feet, which is ironic and reminds me to make every steps of mine solid and concrete, as my mentor said to me with sincere.

As to my mentor Professor Ng, I am in the belief that she is obviously kind-natured and warm-hearted, willing to offer any help to students if possible.I should be thankful to be assigned such a good mentor, and it's likely that I will turn to her more often concerning both academic and career suggestions.

Finally it comes to some of my meditations during the week.

1.The world has its pain, as the pastor said during the Sunday worship. Highly-educated people will be desperate to live for one more year, and people who earn high bank account will sacrifice anything for some sincere companions, it turns out that everyone on earth have the dreams that they may not realize , which are buried deep in their hearts.

As people who are responsible for our heart, the wellspring of human, what shall we do? To immerse ourselves in endless desire and destruct our bodies and leave our spirits exiled? Or find the living power of God, and purify our heart with noble moralities? My heart made the choice, but I made the opposite decision, now I confess with guilt as you uncover what was concealed, and I do hear your words. This night, I also had great fun in our debate training. As I have always believed, a life without thinking is not worth living. I did have some breakthrough, however, there is still much space for improvement, and it is by no means a bad thing. It's really encouraging.

What a fruitful week, thank to your arrangement, I finished it with peace in mind. So life goes on and let's see what lies ahead.

2010

This is my first blog post in 2010. The new semester has started and I have been busy around, dealing with the add/drop courses stuff and attending new classes. I have pay visits to intermediate economics and com-aid statistics, and really appreciate the academic style of courses offered by science department and those of higher level. I feel pitiful that I'm not able to add STAT1620 as my free elective course due to taking BUS1200, if so, to fulfill the requirements of minoring in statistics is more sophisticated than expected, and I hope to turn to AR for more detailed information tomorrow. For the time being, I have added FIN2210 in case, though I guess it's a higher-level course than other courses I am taking. Learning from the website information, the lecturer of FIN2210 concentrate on game theory, which is an important bench of economics, despite the fact that the professor is in the financial department.

Though applied economics fit me better than finance, I still feel it strange that bu offers similar bachelor degrees which are each titled"CBS",CS-ECO",and "Applied ECO". Students study similar core courses, and receive degrees from different departments and schools. I think that it's a bit tricky and confusing. However, to make every effort to learn as much as I can and try to think over issues from various and higher perspectives which come from solid knowledge and scientific approaches. I'm quite fascinated by the teaching style of the lecturer of principles of macroeconomics, who trys to explain GDP, business cycle and other concepts in his own way,pointing out the inaccuracy of the diagrams in the PPT instead of following the ppt content.

At least, I am now aware that multinational companies like Nike helps boost Chinese economy for they contribute to native production of mainland China. Still, I'm not clear about transferring price, and other concepts related to open economy, which I hope I shall figure out later on.

I feel that I urgently lack math tools to help make quantitative analysis in further study, and I'm starting to turn to math books.

Baidu it, and you get it; Google it, you know too much. lol

I believe the action of Google is memorable and 2010 witnesses the evolution of the local area network of China. After all, what remains when the Internet is deprived of Google, Youtube, Facebook and Twitter? Baidu, Youku, Renren(Xiaonei) and T.Sina？

Well, George Orwell have told the whole story before I was born, and I guess it's still not to late to review his tales.

日子如何 力量也如何

祂又設個比喻對他們說：天國好像一個芥菜種，有人拿去中在田裡。

The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his

field. Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet it grows, it is the largest of garden

plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and perch in its branches.

冬天来了

香港，只有夏天和冬天，一夜的寒风，就把我们从夏日的烦躁带入了严寒的畏缩。宿舍临边小山上的树木，似乎都换上的深沉的颜色，没有了往日阳光下鲜绿的生机。在呼啸的寒风中，叉丫的枝干晃动摇摆，一片片无力垂下的大叶子被吹起，露出叶子背面灰白的底色。路旁树上的的紫荆花也不见了踪影。似乎那阳光、那花朵、那深深印入心中的绿色，都被这呼啸的寒风吹走了。路上的行人都换上了冬装，偶尔路过美丽“冻人”的女孩还着短裙，让路过的我着实打了个冷战。寒风追上飞快驶过的汽车，仿佛要和它们比试速度，呼呼作响的风吹过路旁，行人们纷纷缩紧了脑袋，路边的树木早已东倒西歪。

这就是香港的冬天，随着寒风一夜间袭来，吹走了我早已习以为常的耀眼阳光和鲜绿。

离家到香港上大学已经有一年多了，在电话里听母亲说明日搬家，2009年11月18日。

“等你寒假回来就能住新房子了。还有，明天无锡会下雪。”

回想自己高三那年的冬天，也是临近年底时候的那场大雪，记得早晨和爸爸妈妈在院子里对着草地里盖着白雪的拒绝开动的大家伙的无可奈何，记得和邻居们把车子推出草坪，大家却都被溅了一身泥巴的辛苦，记得辛苦赶到学校却没有带模拟考试准考证的慌张，也记得和同学在车站上瑟瑟寒风中等车情景。说到雪，又不得不想到08年元旦冒雪去上海考自主招生的那次经历了。倘若没有陆升伯伯和其他人的帮助，自己根本不可能坐进上海财经大学的考场。还记得财大的那个干净的教室，也记得考试楼里人山人海中的紧张和焦虑。那些思绪，也随着时光的飞逝而逐渐隐去，只是那场景、那些人和事，却深深刻在自己的脑袋里。《野草》里的《过客》中写道，“大家都知道终点，这是无需指引的，问题在于从此到那的道路。那当然不止一条，我可正不知哪一条好，虽然至今又是我还在寻求。”曾经以为自己选择了、充分准备的道路原来却是走上另一条轨迹的预备，人生的戏剧性即体现于此。当你认为一切都一如所愿的时候，其中新的变化却也开始了，变化，在变化中准备变化，恐怕处处都蕴藏着变化和惊喜的伏笔，生活本身就是最好的一篇小说。可是，主人公的命运，也就是我们每个人自己“手中”的命运，又究竟在谁手中呢？

余秋雨在讲座中说司马迁的史记文学把每个中国人变成了历史中人。从个人角度来看，我们每个人，活在一个历史的大背景下，也活在每个人自己的历史里面。没有历史，没有存在的真实感，背负历史，又难免感到沉重。“绝望之为虚妄，正与希望相同。”庆幸过去的人和物

成为历史，是因为只有“成为了历史”，才能证明其存在的真实。而我们存在于之的这个现今呢？是由我们自己能够掌握的，倘若妄加绝望和空想，不仅不能赋予其真实意义，相反，将自己置于虚妄的境地，看不清客观事实，也模糊了自己的存在。